I Hate All The Things I Love About You

I love to blame her. I love to hate her. All the things about her I hate I love.
I crave her. Every inch of her. The more I think about her, the more I belong to her.

The more I think, The more I sink.. in..to….her grip- of having one more sip.

The more I immerse .. the more I rehearse…

The pleasure…. of us together…..

With no end….. she’s my heroin…. my sin, with whom I cannot win.

I must die… or I won’t live…
I must live…or I won’t die…

I must not listen
and stop missing
all the things I hate
before its too late

I must lean on God
to kill the dog
who loves to sin

Some people are like poison, yet we desire to drink every drop we can. We love to hate them because they reflect who we are. We love the evil they bring with their poisonous sting. We can choose to hate them… but then they win.. because we remain attached to them by the emotion, of their magic potion.

The problem is within, which is is our love to sin.
If we were pure, it would be our cure
And sin wouldn’t lure
to walk through the evil door

I must recognize that I am attracted to her for all the wrong reasons, that I have within my heart, and that is a truth-full start, to set myself apart.
From all the bad, that I may find the glad.
And not go mad.
I must find delight in the light
And walk in it through the night
O I will lose sight
Of The Almighty’s might

She is not what is wrong
It is what I long
It is me, now I see
I must cling

Let me pray
And hear your say
Do not fear
I am here


I must try
O I shall die
I must believe
To receive
To end my strife
Never more
Sin in my core

Published by Benmadley777

My aim is to help others make sense of their own lives, by sharing the failures and misfortunes of mine. Misfortune and failure lead a man to the unmistakable clarity of his deception- That there is no need, nor room for God, because he himself is self sufficient, well educated, rich and capable. The more the man stays his ground, holding fast to his position- the more suffering he shall bring into his life. Suffering is the ground upon which elimination of the false occurs and perception of the Truth begins. After enough time is spent courting Misery, Pain, Humiliation, Slavery, Emptiness, one seeks to stop the bleeding. Some men prefer to bleed their way to death rather than admit their ignorance; that their way will never work. While other men, surrender, which is the beginning of knowledge. By surrendering the man does not fall, he rises and steps foot upon the path of Eternal Wisdom and Truth. It is the path that leads to Eternal Life- the pursuit of knowledge, is the pursuit of Almighty God- Man's Creator. *If you have questions, concerns, need direction, prayer, you may email me.* I do not charge for what Almighty God has given me freely. Bhines7165@gmail.com

4 thoughts on “I Hate All The Things I Love About You

  1. Poignant!!
    Heart wrenching, soul searching validated Truth. Resignning to truth to Win.
    To lose your life to save it.
    Remnant Holy warriors arising for our King.
    Let not the vomit and the mud remain.
    Let the Dog and the pig be slain
    On the offering they go to stay .
    The opposite opposite of God is dog which is all that is in man- beastly.
    Opposite of pig is gip which makes God over our sin , an unHoly smell in His nostrils.
    Appreciate you.Ben madly
    Your humility .
    Let your mighty hand O Father remain on your Son .
    Let your mighty hand O God remain on him so he may be lifted up in due time


      1. Hello again
        No , I do not have a site. But I could have . Thank you so much for planting a seed and inspiring me to think about creating one . Your a genious.
        With many Thanks and kindest Regards…..hoping to hear from you soon.


        1. We plant, God breathes life into them. He is the SOURCE of eternal Fresh living Water… that can never be contaminated or run dry. Which is why we must go to the SOURCE daily,… just like fresh springs of water on Earth, they arise pure and clean….until the spring encounters humanity. I never really envisioned this before,,, fresh springs.. would stay fresh if it were not for humans.. it is like we are the contamination and pollution of the world. Without us around….things would be okay… it is us, that contaminate the world.


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