Manicures, Boxes, Wicked Spirits, & Walking Toward The SonShine.


I have dated women who have enjoyed getting their nails done. The interesting thing is the ones I have seen that come out looking like this, I don’t know if the outcome – style is attributed to the person who worked on the nails, but when I think about the ones I personally knew…. it seems to be that it is not the styler, but I honestly don’t know anything about working on nails.

What I do know is this style makes me think of a witch. The hands of a witch. To me these nails are hideous. Maybe not all can see it. I don’t know. But I also know this, when I have seen this same look, appearance, on other women who I personally knew, when the hands and nails looked like this, it wasn’t good. It was a person who was involved in some wicked things.

I remember once four years ago, my wife had a dream, that a wicked spirit came and was standing at the doorway of our bedroom. The wicked spirit threw in a object that was rolled up in leaves, inside I believed she said it glowed but I don’t remember what color. After the object was thrown by the spirit, it landed underneath our bed but on her side, it then proceeded to make a rolling sound as it rolled underneath my side. Hardwood floors. This object was meant for me. I was having many problems at the time sleeping, things were always bothering me, disrupting my sleep. Right after it rolled to my side, she said (recounting this story the best I can,its been four years since I’ve shared it) in what seemed like an instant Jesus showed up. It seemed like an instant but she said at the same time the experience felt much longer. She said she knew it was Jesus because she got to see the marks on his hands. She did not see his face. And I remember how she went on to describe His hands. She was astonished and taken back by how beautiful they were. She said, I saw the marks, but what stood out to me were how perfect , and how beautiful His hands were. The size, the strength in them. They were remarkable. She went on to say she had never seen a pair of hands kike that. Their appearance really left an impression on her.

She said He shared with her seven things, which I wrote down the next morning as she shared it with with. What happened next was as soon as that wicked spirit threw in the object and it rolled to my side, Jesus showed up and she said what happened next was a kind of flash, where every spot or path the wicked spirit and the object had taken and were it had been inside the house-those parts lit up to a bright golden color. Jesus was cleaning up and eliminating any actions or operations of the spirit. She recounted the sensation of how effortlessly He did so. And the color of the floor, the hallway, and even the living room where the wicked spirit had initially manifested.

There is so much to learn. We cannot afford to be naive or closed minded. Closed minded people don’t learn what they need to because they shut down all other possibilities.

They TRY TO PLACE GOD IN A BOX, by labeling the outside of the box with their beliefs: THIS IS WHAT GOD CAN DO AND WHAT HE WILL NOT DO.

Last year, I, through the help of Jesus, wrote an amazing brilliant piece on putting God in a box. I was enthralled at the completion of the mini work. I had never written a piece quite like that one. It was original, and beaming with creativity. That piece along with others were destroyed by the enemy. I have to admit the day they were destroyed, I let my guard down. I decided to dance w the enemy. And because of it, my Bible was stolen. My papers were destroyed. Work I can not get back. Twice, this has happened. Twice I have allowed this to occur.

But that’s okay, because every time we get knocked down, Jesus stands us back up, and we come back stronger and harder and even more on FIRE.

Ironic, there is a newly built fire station next to our Church. But baby, they can’t put out this fire.

Back to boxing up God. We cannot put God in a box. its like walking a straight line from point A to point B. Suddenly on the walk we do a 180 degree turn around and face point A again. And we start walking back toward A.

This happens every time we do things our way. When we think we know a matter. When we say “God does it this way only. God only works like this or that, I know because I have seen it. I know because I believe it. I see it with my own eyes, I have seen proof. ” And most of all because I myself, have done and said those very things.

Those things may be true. But have you forgotten who you are? Made of clay. Made of the earth. How can you dictate and profess that God ONLY works a certain way? I don’t care how many scriptures you have to back up what you are claiming. You or me don’t get to say that. We CANNOT PLACE GOD IN A BOX. But much of the time, we do put God in a box and we don’t even realize it. We don’t realize that God isn’t nicely packaged in the box of our belief system rooted in our egos, the only one in the box of limitations is OURSELVES. We package ourselves inside with no room to breath fresh air.

If we continue walking toward point A, soon we will pass up our origination point, and yes the road continues on ahead. Trust me, you don’t want to walk past point A. The roads descends and spirals downward. The more you chose your own way by falsely believing that you can chose to be atheist and that somehow by believing there is no God that is going to define you and your independence, is astoundingly dumbfounded. It is retarded. No such nonsense will exonerate you from responding the day He calls your name. That day, no matter where you are, whom you are with, you willingly or unwillingly will respond- physically, and begin walking, moving, toward His voice.

On that day, the atheists, the magicians, the sorcerers, the astrologers, the liars, the thieves, the immoral, the ones who so proudly professed boisterously ‘there is no God’ will surely know there is. All our false erroneous beliefs will be shattered by the revealing light of Christ. I say all, because all of us believe in something that is false, something that is skewed and twisted. If you think you are the exemption, your arrogance is foolish. Your intellect blinds you from understanding Wisdom.

Turn around if your facing point A.
Point A is ourselves.

If you find yourself on the other side of point A, which is LIVING HELL, yes its dark, yes it is misery, and yes its hot as hell, but GOD is merciful. He is FULL of mercy because He is MERCY.


Turn around ad face point B.
Point B is facing the direction of THE SUN (SON)

The light of The World.

The Truth, The Way, and The Life.

He is The Door.

There is but ONE.

Nobody gets to the Father except through me.

Anytime we decide to do things our way, it is declaring to God, even if we don’t physically open our mouths and speak, we do so with our souls, we declare Lord I hear you, but I am not ready to give that up, I like it way too much. So I am going to continue on walking toward you while continuing to do what you’re asking me to surrender to you.

In this situation, at least we are outside of the box, standing up. The problem here is we aren’t moving, it just seems like we are. We are spinning in place. Spinning our wheels and calling it progress.

“Let us be encouraged by Gods Truth. Let us see things in His revealing Light. Let us pray for His Light to shine down into every aspect of our lives, in order that we may see clearly the things needed, the things hidden, and the things, and people, and operations of the enemy that have infiltrated our lives. May God’s glorious power awaken within us, strengthen us, fortify us, encourage us, steady us, sharpen us, equip us, guide us, challenge us, protect us, deliver us, teach us, persevere us, maintain us, cultivate us, develop us, lift us, grow us, instill in us His Wisdom, His clarity, His discernment, His Truth, His overwhelming Joy, His Love, His ability, His talent, His Power, His Humility, His compassion, His faith, and all other things needed and more, today, and each day going forward, in the name of Jesus Christ by the power of the Almighty God and Holy Blessed Spirit. Amen. ”

Let us then share, testify, and where it is we walk, let us walk in Christ, understanding whether we are at work, at school, at play, at a dinner with friends, no matter where we are, our FAITH IN CHRIST is never turned off. It is not a 8-5 job, nor career. Our Faith In Christ is eternal. The only time it is turned off, is to allow us to sin. And turn back around to face point A.

Thank you Christ for your help. You are the ink, the Words, and the paper, the author of my Life.
~J Mendoza 4/2/2019

“Trust in The Lord. Do not lean on your own understanding. Trust Him in all thy ways, and He Himself will set your paths straight. ” Prov 3:5-6

Published by Benmadley777

My aim is to help others make sense of their own lives, by sharing the failures and misfortunes of mine. Misfortune and failure lead a man to the unmistakable clarity of his deception- That there is no need, nor room for God, because he himself is self sufficient, well educated, rich and capable. The more the man stays his ground, holding fast to his position- the more suffering he shall bring into his life. Suffering is the ground upon which elimination of the false occurs and perception of the Truth begins. After enough time is spent courting Misery, Pain, Humiliation, Slavery, Emptiness, one seeks to stop the bleeding. Some men prefer to bleed their way to death rather than admit their ignorance; that their way will never work. While other men, surrender, which is the beginning of knowledge. By surrendering the man does not fall, he rises and steps foot upon the path of Eternal Wisdom and Truth. It is the path that leads to Eternal Life- the pursuit of knowledge, is the pursuit of Almighty God- Man's Creator. *If you have questions, concerns, need direction, prayer, you may email me.* I do not charge for what Almighty God has given me freely.

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