NOW I SEE
The easy road is doing what comes natural. It requires little effort or thought, more so than anything else- it is to follow the instinct and impulses of the body.
‘He’s an animal! ‘ he overheard her say about his sexual performance. It made him feel proud. He immediately straightened his back and stood taller with his chest out. The next morning he was the first one at the shop. He couldn’t wait to tell his buddies the compliment.
‘Yeah, man.. She said I was like an animal! ‘
‘Wow! Rock on, bro. ‘
A series of fist pumps and elbow clashes followed by a synchronized mid level acrobatic lean back jump.
And so it is when we are young and inexperienced that we find ourselves going through the exact same type of animal behavior. We take it as a compliment.
After time passes, and we learn the hard way by pumping out babies like a Willy Wonka Chocolate factory produces candy bars, that we begin to have a change of mind.
We begin to feel and experience the consequences of an automatic 25% pre-tax deduction called child support, or a debilitating physical condition from a contracted variety pack of STD’S, and having to work two mediocre low level jobs in order to live one more day.
This is when God’s guidance and His Word hits us in the face like a ton of bibles falling straight down from Heaven.
Now, I see the value in your counsel, My Lord. Now I see what you meant. Now I see those moments when I would find myself reading your word as a teenager as I would say to myself “oh no, so many unnecessary rules, they are old fashion.. ” that they weren’t rules to hold me back from having fun, or to imprison me, those things- your guidance, statutes, and commands were there to protect me and keep me safe. They exist to elevate me and ensure I enjoy my life to the fullest. Now I see, that all the world had and has to offer, in all its glamorous shop windows, markets, by day or night, served only to imprison me for life. Now I see, they were and are there to keep my eyes focused on anything and everything but you. To stand between me and my God given destiny.
We work so hard, my Lord to acquire success- to own our homes, cars, degrees, boats, jewelry, clothes, 401ks, $$$ in our bank accounts, for recognition and admiration of men and women, all for what?
We fail to see everything we are striving for is temporary. None of it matters. All the money we earn and save over the course of our lives and I can’t even take a penny with me. Like you said- give what belongs to Ceaser what belongs to Ceaser.
I shall set my gaze upon building up things were nothing fades away. I will set my gaze upon building my home upon THE ROCK OF AGES OF ETERNITY.
Show me, teach me, and lead me. Show me the path I must take, daily. Show me the things that remain hidden from my sight, that hold me down, that dim your light from shining brightly.
Shine down your light. Beam it down like a spotlight into and over every aspect of my life so that I can clearly see the TRUTH OF THE MATTER. As painful as it may be. I need that. I want that. Because, I trust you. Now I see that chosing my way, is fools gold- promising much but delivering nothing. Now I see that seeking and finding infinite pleasure in sin is like being blindfolded and dropped into the middle of the ocean, with an open wound that is bleeding. Now I see only fools disregard the counsel of God. Fools see no merit in your treasure of miracles. I was that fool, and I still am in many ways. But now my heart is set upon finding comfort in you every day.
For you are the only thing TRUE AND TRUSTWORTHY.
In Jesus name, I say, pray and declare your goodness.
I shall testify about the many miracles I myself have seen and witnessed with my own eyes.
I shall help those needing help.
I shall learn from all those you lead into my life to teach me all the things I do not know.
I shall seek humility.
I shall seek the door that leads to eternal life.